So recently after the death of my son, I've started to ponder and wonder what the real things are in life... I used to think it was a relationship with the man, just one man. But all of a sudden things became very clear to me that our relationship with the man will come and go. the most important thing that I'm happy for is my family and my kids mainly my kids...but to all the gentleman that I've become friends with I just want to tell you all thank you you've been so important to me and most instrumental in my life! People don't always understand the hobby, but sometimes we make very good friends so I want to tell all of my sweet wonderful boyfriends thank you for helping me get through this. And I would just like to pick your brains and no what makes you happy?