frustrations ?

[Tommie Gunnz]

I have thought long and hard about posting this. It almost cost me the most precious thing we all have. So here goes. My biggest frustration in the hobby. Any lady that has seen me will tell you that I treat them with the utmost respect. I never ask for more than agreed upon. I respect them.

Playing with peoples heart strings and using deception to manipulate someone is my biggest frustration. Now this works both ways. A man using a lady and a lady using a man. Some look at others as a piece of meat, an object of pleasure no more valuable than a sex toy. They lose site of the fact that we are all human beings here. Don’t lie. Don’t use. Ladies don’t fall for the super hero Capt’n Sav A Hoe.

And guys, don’t lose site of the fact that you are just another John. I will have to plead guilty here, especially in a recent case. I wasn’t trying to be Capt’n Sav A Hoe as much as my basic nature to help a human being in need kicked in. Go ahead and call me a dumbass, tell me something I don’t already know. The lady comes across as a sweetheart. In fact, that is the most common things her promoters say about her. But, I discovered a master manipulator. She caught me at a vulnerable time in my life. She needed help. Has “a condition” that keeps her from working for extended periods of time.

For several months, I was not only a client but helped her when she couldn’t work. Not cause I wanted to save her, mind you, or as an attempt to get free sex. I never asked for free sex. I bought her gas, food, took her to the ER, bought 3 prescriptions (she doesn’t have insurance), helped her with personal items, in addition to giving her close to $1000 in non-session cash. Go ahead, tell me what I already know. I’m a dumbass and I deserve what I got.

Like I mentioned, she caught me at a vulnerable time in my life. I was dealing with a lot. Very lonely. Played with my heart like Stevie Ray played a Strat. Told me how wonderful I was, that she loved me, I’m the one she’s been looking for all her life, she wanted to move in with me. I swallowed the bait and the hook. Then, she told me she never meant it and only said it because she needed me to keep helping her and figured I would stop. I still have the text messages that proves it.

Don’t bother asking me who it is. She has White Knights, several who feed her information and I don’t need the grief.

So, lesson learned big time. I will never do more than pay for a session with a Provider ever again. You may now call me anything you choose. When you hobby. Leave your heart at the door.

Being reckless with the hearts and emotions of others, and betraying those that have given you their trust is one of the wounds that cut the deepest. I'm sorry this happened to you, and I'm sorry it happened in this community. It's fucked up, and you have every right to the hurt it's caused you.

What this says to me is that you're a good man, and you did what a any good man would do. And unfortunately, there are people in the world that manipulate the genuine intentions of others for personal gain, which can leave the Givers and Helpers of the world cold, callous, and jaded.

I say fuck that noise! Refuse to let the uglies in this world steal your sunshine, and continue to put yourself out there by helping anothers in need. When things like this happen to me I try to (eventually, sometimes sooner than others) use the experience to make a better version of myself, and the best me will always take the risk.

I'm sending you all the virtual hugs right now. And, if no one's said so today, you're a good person and the world is better because you're in it! XOXO