I understand what you mean...there has been something very unique to this generation be essentially pressing pause on the engine of the world. At first it was very disoreienting - lack of focus, lack of purpose, slight depression (and I NEVER get depressed). But at some point along the way I took a deep breath, realized that this was far out of my control and that I needed to take advantage of the "pause". It's interesting that you use the term "innerchild" to describe doing something inpu for the joy of the activity (whether you are describing reading, sports, music, etc.)... I also re-examined my life and have made some rather serious changes and decisions for the future that I might not otherwise have made had it not been for COVID. I wonder if I will beging looking back on life as my mindset pre and post COVID.