A friend wrote this and I knew that I needed to share something so raw and so fictional...



I feel so out of place in the world.
You call me blunt
I say it's just truth.
No one stays around long
They do not like looking at the mirror
The mirror that is me
Yes I hear you
Yes i understand
Wait,
Now you mean something else
And now it's back to before.
You call it
Beating
Around the Bush.
I call it
Scared.
Scared to face yourself
To face the truth.
Scared to let anyone really know you.
Scared of judgement.
Scared of honesty.
You hide
Everyday
Behind your words.
You speak
Empty sentences.
You lie,
And cover up your lies.
I understand what you say.
But when I come at you straight
For clarity
To rid confusion
That you have spun.
You furrow your brow.
You suddenly have no recall
Of anything at all.
A moment ago
You spun tales
Stories which you would ask
Do you know what I mean?
Frustrated if I didnt.
I'm tired of it all.
Speak straight forward to me.
Stop lying
Stop hiding behind dishonest walls.
You are bisexual.
You enjoy cock.
You enjoy pussy.
Truth.
You do not want me
I am too fat for you
So you think
I am your burden
Your nightmare
I am your child
I am your pet
Im old news
You have spit me out
You do not want me to be your wife
Hand me my divorce papers then
You fuck everything that walks in your direction
You seek it out everywhere we go
You go to your place
She was there.
You yelled at me to get me to not ask for sex
You go to her and ravish her
He was waiting for you
He loves you now
You told him you love him too
You told her all your love was hers
You like his mouth wrapped around your cock
You block my calls
But it was an accident
You scream
You apologize
You are never sorry
You calm the beast
Bc this beast pays your bills
You have used me
Year after year
You are my abuser
You let men rape my while I sleep
You tell me I'm crazy
You think my life is a game
You hit me
You scare me
You taunt me
You have turned everyone I know against me
You fucked them all
You showed them all
Just how to disrespect me
Lie to me
Beat me down
Tear me apart
I am now where you want me
Alone
You need me to depend on you
You crave my obedience
You find it amusing
Getting me to do what you wish
Without ever asking me anything.
You send the ones
You send the ones that hurt me.
You get joy from my bruises.
Why did you ever message me?
Why did you just see a victim
In my eyes?
I hate who I know you are.
I hate that I am so lonely that I stay
By your side
I do not need you
I have supported YOU for YEARS.
But you use the kids
You tell me you have no where to go
You know I'm not heartless.
You know how I am about my kids
I give in
I keep taking care of you
You win
Over and over
You know the end is near,
Right?
I'm getting stronger everyday.